mmm.... talked 2 *shy on the phone..... since we last met last sun...
dun intend to call her initially.. just that she tempted me with such stuffs .. dat excites me so much... ok.. juz cant wait to call her asap ... n talked 2 her....
whao... such a long talk...... but yet... on my mind was only wad she said for the 1st few minutes....
i dunno if she can feel the tinge of sadness tt falls upon me tt moment... undescribe-able.... not really sadness... not reallly disappointment... not really upset... haiya.. whatever... just simply....
down.... ok.. eveb if the ans is either a 'yes' or a 'no'... i would not probably do anything abt it... but.. somehow u just yearn for this
+empty 'yes'+
perhaps... its really not wad i think it would be... for them two... its a 'year' thingy.. but for me... juz a 'day' thingy..... i dunno.... feel quite.... whatever lah....
perhaps the protagonist dun even understand how 'big' tis issue actually is... bcos he/she basically dun give a heck.. or dun even realises the existence of such circumstances....
i am confused..... or mayb it is even better... to noe everiting alone.. so as to prevent undesired situations fom happening...
ok lah.. convinced me that its all God's plan k? yah.... mayb all that has happpened is the best that cld happen afterall... as in.. good for u, good for me... good for everybody lor.... yah.. maybe... shld be... yes... it MUST BE...
u ppl may nt understand this entry....at all... mayb only shy understands... mayb sum part she doesnt even understand.... oh yah... i guess no one even needs to understand... mmmm....
dun bother asking me.... cos i wun even bother saying.... i shld'nt even have blogged abt it... but.... ironically, i juz find myself typing down all these right now... u noe the computer wldnt understand u... but well, technology just have this weird way that eventually attracts us to them.... wen u r full or emotions, emotion-less... guess wad.... it seeems that the Computer knows it all...
goin for a swim... pls dun rain anymore
dancing all night long _ *
3:05 PM
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